Do I care?

Typical, I haven't been on my blogspot for ages and then when I do finaly get here it's to rant. How come you can have life so good on the one hand while every thing else is going to pot on the other? I finaly find a place where I'm loved and understood and I know I need to be and I have to deal with rumors and insinuations about me and things that are so untrue that if they weren't so potentialy damaging to a lot of people i know they'd be funny. Then once I just about feel I've got that sorted something else that I really had no desire to deal with comes up and bites me on the arse big style. I don't know wether to laugh or cry about that one as I was right. I walked away from the whole situation a good couple of months ago and I find out it's all got kicked up again and others are walking out. I don't want to have to deal with it because, as far as I knew it was as dead as dead dodo's backside, but here it is back and bigger than ever. I also find out that a major injustice has happend in the same institution and that people who SHOULD know better aparently don't. I'm sorry if this is making much sense but I can't really broadcast it on such a public forum with out getting my arse whooped so I'm just really writting a load of crap just to get it out of my head and onto the screen. If I couldn't do this I'd go even more mad as it is I'm questioning my sanity big time at the moment anywa. Why do I bother get out of bed? The weather will always be cold, the sky will always be grey because , in the end, everything is predictable. God starts to work miricles in my life, him down stairs starts kicking up and I end up being really pissed off and apethetic to the whole thing. The people piss me off and that just make's me worse. I know that him upstairs is look after me and the father of lies won't shake my conviction in the God of justice and truth but sometimes I could just do with out the phone calls and texts and the frantic rush to sorth everything out. As a friend oof mine would say lie is being hectic.